In recent months I have opened up on my blog about my history with postnatal depression and my road to recovery. One thing I haven’t talked about (but can often be a by product of mental illness) is my huge lack of self-confidence.
Over the last year I have been on an enormous journey; my whole life, and perspective of that life, has shifted. This time last year I was recovering from postnatal depression after having my third child. I was also coming to the end of my maternity leave from my job as a primary school teacher.
As I was preparing for my return to work, I worried if I would be able to cope as a teacher again. I was only working part time but I was also taking care of everything at home with three young children and a husband who worked very long hours. I started back at work after Easter 2017 but knew immediately it wasn’t for me. It was lovely to see workmates again but confidence in myself and my abilities was at an all time low, so I opted to step out of the working world for a while and concentrate on being mum, as well as making the most of my youngest being so little.
One thing with depression that isn’t talked about as much is lack of self-confidence. It’s a bit of a chicken and the egg quandary, some believe that low self-confidence can lead to depression, while others say that depression can lead to low self-confidence. I feel the latter was true for me.